reaming

and why shut me out from all of it?  why - when you have left me - do you do things that we could have done together or you could have done simultaneous to being with me?  why was i your jailor and your bad mommy and your annoying looker?  why could i not be a partner to you?  i was looking forward to a life with you.  when you didn't even bother doing anything - anything - anything different regarding me.  when you lashed out at me as the enemy.  i shut down.  why would there be a mystery there.  i love you.  you are a creative genius.  you - when you are nice - are the most amazing person.  do you know why i didn't like to go to dinners or to go out with you?  because you would leave me in silence not even being able to talk to me like you'd talk to someone you just met at a rodeo.  i noticed.  it hurt.