death

he wrote me today after i wrote him and he said he had had intense thoughts and feelings about me ...  i would say that i am dying in agony at the loss of what our shared future would have been.  i would say i love him, but this is something i've felt before, and i have to admit that i am not all that into myself either - thinking i'm some old boring person.  i wore the birthday gift he made fun of around my neck all day and smelled his clothes.  loss.